Oh to be in the arms of Jesus…

Oh my fellow travelers, it is with both complete sorrow and just the slightest bit of joy that I inform you that our Norah Maye is perfectly healed and safe in the arms of Jesus.

After what was a much shorter than anticipated ultrasound this morning, our doctor confirmed that Norah passed within the last few days.  We could tell something was wrong this morning when the ultrasound tech didn’t spend much time taking pictures and very quickly checked for a heartbeat.  She was in and out much to swiftly and as we waited about 20 minutes for the doctor to confirm what we knew was very likely, my emotions were all over the place…They still are.

At first Jonathan and I didn’t talk about what we were both thinking until I said, “It looks like she has grown…she just wasn’t wiggling much at all.”  Jonathan agreed and eventually said, “I think God answered our prayer.  He healed her.”  And tears streamed down my face.

For what seemed like an eternity I thought about and tried to process the likelihood of losing her and at the same time tried to have hope that it wasn’t true.   I wasn’t expecting to hear that we had lost her today so I tried to wrap my head around continuing the journey that looked grim, just based on what we did see of her little head.  I tried to imagine life without her all the while thinking about maybe getting to keep her.  And as we kept waiting, the reality seemed to sink in more.

The doctor was compassionate, which was an answer to prayer.  He was matter of fact but explained to us very gently what he saw and what the next few days may look like.  He told us that she is small and explained her diagnosis more before confirming that she was in fact no longer with us.  Up until this appointment I have been able to keep tears at bay until we got to the car, but they fell freely for me (and the ultrasound tech) this morning as the doctor continued to move the ultrasound wand trying to get a good angle of Norah for a picture that I requested.

And then we left…and we prepare for what is next.  Tomorrow morning at 5am we will head to the hospital and I will be induced.  I’m not completely sure how tomorrow will play out.  All I know is that I was scared for our appointment today and I am all the more scared about tomorrow and what will be required of me.

We continue to appreciate all the prayers we can get.  More specific prayer requests include:

  • A good nights rest so Jonathan and I have energy for what could be a very long day tomorrow.
  • Safe travel for my parents making their way here from Rapid City, SD to be here in time for the appointment in the morning.
  • Peace and calm during the induction and labor process.
  • For a special time when we get to hold and see her.
  • And for all the unknowns that I don’t even know need to be prayed for.

And already we wait with great anticipation for when we can join our Norah Maye and our first sweet Little One in the arms of Jesus.

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13 thoughts on “Oh to be in the arms of Jesus…

  1. May our God meet your every need in the days to come. I pray that He will grant you the gift of peaceful sleep tonight, safe travel for your parents and strength and comfort for all of you.

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  2. Oh, dear Meghan and Jon and all of your family…we love you so much and wish we were closer to give you the biggest hug you could ever imagine. Will be upholding you in even greater prayer tomorrow and the weeks ahead. I haven’t a clue how and it all makes no sense however, I pray for beauty to come after all of this which could likely seem a state of ashes right now. Love and prayers!

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  3. I am so sad to hear that your beloved Nora Maye has been called home to Jesus, but I know you will have comfort in the knowledge that she is safe in the arms of Jesus, along with your other little one.
    Our prayer group at Montrose Baptist Church in Scotland will continue to keep you in prayer, especially in these difficult days ahead. I pray the Lord will bless you both as you hold your precious daughter in your arms tomorrow. Love and prayers to you both and to all the family
    Ivy

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  4. You speak of your little one so beautifully, and your strength and reliance on the Lord’s comfort is so inspiring. I will be praying for you and for your husband. I cannot imagine the suffering you have to endure. May God be with you.

    “We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; always carrying in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our bodies…he who raised the Lord Jesus will raise us also with Jesus (2 Cor 4:8-11)”–God Bless.

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  5. Hi Megan,
    My heart breaks for you. This I know for sure, The Lord draws near to the brokenhearted. I know that He will be walking especially close to you as you grieve for Norah Mae. He is full of compassion and mercy for you. My heart is heavy for you and you are in our prayers. . Remember, “There is no hole so deep that Jesus isn’t deeper still.” Corey Ten Boom.

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  6. Heard your story through a mutual friend. Your family has been heavy on my heart these last couple of days. I have been praying and will continue to pray for comfort for you and your family, as well as quick healing for your body after delivery.

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  7. Dear Meghan & Jonathan,

    We just returned from three weeks overseas and we’re so sad to learn that we will never meet our great-great niece Norah Maye. But we’ve lived long enough to understand that all things happen for a reason. Sometimes that reason isn’t clear, but time has a way of providing greater understanding.

    We know how kind, thoughtful, and loving each of you is, so we’re sure that many good things will come your way as long as you stay true to yourselves and keep your deep faith.

    With love,

    Uncle Robert & Aunt Ellen

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